Celebrating Now

As I chatted to a friend on BBM the other day, I happened to stumble upon a picture that took me back to a  time of deep emotional asperity when I prayed for a certain level of memory loss; wanting only to remember  the happy moments – when the life I lived then, seemed whole – without cracks or other flaws.

And as I tried to force the memories back into the little black box I have now labeled their home, I listened to the love songs playing in the back ground, watching as each note floated by carrying their own message of love , pain, separation, trust and betrayal. 

The Smile doesn’t appear on my lips and the tear drops no longer leave light brown balls to run down my cheeks; slowing as they move over the speed bumps created by pimples, nor do they disappear into the craters of open pours before they fall unto my lap…. I am healing slowly in an unfamiliar way; and at that I can smile with my heart. 

We often fail to realize that the four seasons of the year are represented in our everyday lives, by those with whom we associate, fall in love, go to school, work or even live with. They have purpose (sometimes they are unaware of it) and they are only present for a season rolling along like tumble weeds at the end of their tenure… the only difference with the seasons of the year and those of our lives is that those of our lives may have an extended period.

Colours blend on delicate wings,

Pinks mixing with greens,

Oranges…delicate crimsons

Soft as a powder puff’s kiss

Beautifully arrayed like the setting sun’s sky.

Wings flutter, moving from flower to flower

intoxicated by the nectar that flows.

The sun smiles as we throw kisses at the rain

watching it give birth to greater beauty

with each droplet of water.

Northern lights play happily across the sky

And as dew makes love to every blade of grass

She revels in the mud of his glory

Celebrating their union

Knowing that of this moment alone- they are sure.

With each step you take in each day you are blessed to live, live in the moment- celebrating that minute, that second, that opportunity; to laugh out loud or giggle like a school girl, to scream at the top of your voice in exasperation, or to cry with joy or sadness appreciating each act of kindness from a stranger, each emotion felt and shared. Celebrating each moment as it is experienced lavishing only in that space and that time knowing that it will only come once.